So often I have felt caught—torn between the sinful, imperfect woman I am and the woman I desperately long to be. The woman I sometimes am, or pretend to be. The woman who Jesus sees, the woman I will one day be.
And I have felt stuck. Unable to move forward, unable to make any real progress in my journey with Jesus. Falling and failing over and over again.
Deep down I know the answer is to let it go. If I want to be free to be the woman God created me to be, I need to let a lot of things go. Things like impossible standards and unrealistic expectations. Guilt, shame, and regret. Misery, negativity. Bitterness and unforgiveness. The illusion that I can control all kinds of things (circumstances and people!) that have never been in my control.
I want to let it go. But how? How do I let it go? What does “letting it go” look like in real life? In my life? And is “letting it go” the end of it—or is there something more?
These are things I’ve been thinking about and praying about a lot lately.
I wouldn’t say I have all the answers. Honestly, I haven’t arrived. But I’ve finally been making some progress. I’ve been learning —sometimes as much from my failures as my successes, by trial and error. Learning from the lives of great men and women of the faith, from wise friends and godly mentors. Learning from Scripture and from Jesus Himself, growing in my love relationship with Him.
That’s what I want to share with you, to encourage your heart—as mine has been encouraged. And maybe save you a few steps on your journey. Help you get unstuck a little faster than I have.
Because the truth is, we don’t have to live in failure, discouragement, and defeat. Thanks to Jesus, we are so much more than our mistakes. We have been forgiven and we have been set free.
And so we have a choice. We can choose to let the past (yesterday or years ago) define us